Forgiveness

So down the mood today,
every things seem like not under my expected.
Every things seem like will leave me away soon-
My friend,my energy,my motivation,my mood...
but still have to pretend be nothing
as I want to learn to be strong(in fact I'm not strong)
and I really don't want other people worry about me.
Don't ask me if you can't help me
as I'm lazy to explain anymore.
I'm a worst & terrible person,
Didn't contribute but ask for more...
WHY?
I want to change,
please help me!
This moment,this second...
I want to cry,
I need somebody hold me up.
Mummy & Daddy,
Sorry as I know I'm not being well as a son..
make you disappointing....
妈,
原谅我的无理,
原谅我的任性,
原谅我的放纵,
原谅我的奢侈,
原谅我的要求,
原谅我的贪心,
原谅我的没用,
请您原谅我的一切.
您是我满分的妈妈,
但我是个不及格的孩子...
我尝试去进步,
我真的需要你,
我爱你,妈!

Appreciate... life

您,
赐给了我们生命.
也是您,
主宰我们的命运.
生命,
我对它越感陌生及模糊.
但我知道,
它是很脆弱的.
人切勿时常言寻死-因人应该求生而非求死.
世间有数多人比你更身不由己及处于难熬的生活.
人啊!
他们都从未放弃生命,
你又有何资格言欲死呢?
生命是珍贵的;
每个人都是独一无二的,谁也无法取代谁.
过了就别再回首,安心地去吧...
你们永在我们心中...

我已厌烦那些日子了,
讲是非;讨厌人等等的生活.
我真觉得那一切都很可怕及幼稚.
因为那些人言扉语,
就可以使人陷入厌恶-有如恶魔缠身似的,
人言可畏啊!
将心比心,你也不想别人待你假仁假义.
其实简单也是一种快乐.......凡事别想太多......一切都会变好的....
有谁能晓得生命的长短?又有谁能预知下一刻会如何?没有
因为只有天地知.
既然不知那就别杞人忧天了,
生命的意义是不在于它的长短,
而是你是否有充实及踏实地去过.
珍惜生命;珍惜彼此;珍惜这一刻....
我爱你们!

Daddy,I love U......

such a long Break

Haiz,I had took a long break in Blogging.Hehe...sometimes I really want to post but u know people are always lazy!Long time didn't add new post so now like don't know want to write what.Finally I had finished my y2s1 final exam,very tough...B4 the exam going on,I really scared as I have no confidence at all but now I just wish that I could pass all my subject as I don't want to retake,wasting $ and time.Well,actually I'm sad as I feel myself seen like....emm...dnt know how to describe my feeling now.Ok,I will become down every time when my aunt silent with me as I know she angry me.I rather she scold out what fault I had done as silent war is scary.I'm not blaming them(adult)I'm sure B also will facing this kind of problem,I love my aunt but I dont like the way we communicate now.It really drive me crazy....Sometime I think before that is't they only will know the available of me after I die.I'll try to think positive.

My dear Mummy,I know you care about,I know & I love u too but U know that I don't like to talk when I'm unhappy.So,at the moment u just don't bother me.As if u keep asking me things,sure I will argue with u as the moment that is not me so I really cant control my emotion.Mummy,I could tk cr myself goodly.What u need to done 4 me is U hv to care & love more yourself.I really don't want face about family problem.I have losing a complete family so I dont want to lose U & aunt anymore.Two of u are important 4me. Irreplaceable

Today I staying my big uncle house.Along today I having breakfast and lunch with them,I feel so warm as 4me this is the complete family I need:go out together with mum & dad but I hv no this change anymore.I really love them.Thank u so much 4the caring & love.Actually,I really unhappy with a matter.Every time when my family member unsatisfied or don't like with some things I done,they will complaint or gossiping to my mum.She feel sad aft she heard as she know I'm not that kind of person they said but she cant do anything.She just a small lady,she can't fight or argue with u all as she is kind and she do so to protect me.Thank you 4 believing me.Please,please,please...if u want criticize me just straightly say to me,I don't mind.why u want make my mum sad,I hate ur mouth....I will improved if I have wrong as I clear what myself doing currently.I just want to b myself & happy.I know u all care abt me but please...u all dont do it again,I don't want to hate U.U all jst changed ur view.If other ppl gossiping abt ur child,what's ur feeling??I'm already so tired for all these things!!!

On friday,I had attended Sis Ashley 21st Birthday party.It's great & fun.Ashley,Happy Birthday To U n wish U dream come true.But tht day very few of us attended the party,many people promised to go but finally they didnt turn it on.As a third party,I feel not so good as only less of my secondary school friends came to mine party,especially this is my 21st years old celebration.Sis Ashley,I can understand U.We love u 4ever!!I'm happy tht day,finally can meet with Ashley & Renee.In my heart,they just like my older n second sister,tk cr n love me.Miss my secondary school life...**


Beside tht,Jieni Bf company her attended Ashley Party too.I feel so warm n good as Jieni Bf is really a good guy tht less in this world,tk cr goodly to ni.Great to see that my sister have a good partner.I.m sure they will happiness 4ever n ever.hehe......

My dear Edmund,actually I don't know if u r happy with ur life now as tht day I went to stay ur hostel,I can't believe that u will stay there as I really want ur life to b better.I'm not look down to those place,it only the house is not feel good to me.So,I promised someday when I'm affordable,I'll buy a house then we stay together.Why guys house are always so messy & dirty??I really don't understand??Why,why....

Oops,forget edi...I want to thank to all my angel,classmate & my sweet housemate that celebrate my Birthday 4me and all the wish u all gave.I'm so appreciate it.Love Uuuuu...Muaks....


Attended Soon Thye birthday party,

Happy Birthday to u & wish U dream come true!!

Fun on that day as meet with some long time no see friends,especially my lovely sister Vyyin.

..My Lou Pou..
Miss Dodo so much..almost 2month didn't saw her

Hang out with Chern & Ni last sat to Zouk flea market and pavilion.Really feel great along with two of U as both of us r crazy in shopping.I didn't buy many things as the previous night I cant slept well at Edmund house so feel bit tired that day.Sage,glad to know U as my friend.U such a nice & pretty girl...^^next time hang out for shopping again..!!

Ho...ho.ho...Gossip Girl 3rd season coming back.B,dont miss it!!

There might be many tough in our life but I believe that all the matter will b fine finally.Keep going on,my dear A!

Bored

Long time didn't update my blog edi.I went back to Klang for 2 weeks.I will go back again tomorrow as want to gather with some friends on weekend.Last 2weeks was extremely boring as my daily life-eat,watch tv, sleep & as a driver-drive my mum,aunt and cousin to any place they want.I had cut a new hair by Edmund.Then,Jieni accompany me attend the SHU UEMURA party.Thank u so mch,Ni! if not u,sure I will b very boring.I had spent RM420 tht day on buying SHU product & a TOPMAN hat.I will upload the things I bought in next post.

I went to sing K wit Yvonne on last tuesday.Always feel fun & happy together wit u,friend.After that,I drop at her house as I want see the S.H.E new released book that she bought.That was the last stock when she bought.The seller told us out of stock edi & not sure whether will come again or not.OMG!!!!!PLease let me buy 1,I must collect it.I had ate a lot too.My lovely aunt everyday cook my favourite foods to me,I love all the dish she cooked.My big uncle also will brought me to eat on weekend.I'm so appreciate it as whole of his family treat me very good.I Love u all so much.& also my cousin sister.

Bck to school again.FINAL Exam is coming after 3weeks.Shit.....

I'm coming Bck

Hi,B.I'm back.The hair look messy as this photo I took before going to take bath.There is a black hairband.Hallo!!

Hohoho....Finally I've time to update my blog as last week is busy in those school work.I'm freedom now as all my assignment & presentation had past.First of all, I'd like to thank to my group mate for their participate in every time discussion and doing a good job in all the assignment & presentation. Beside that,sorry if I had done something or saying something that make you all angry.......The successful is because the effort by all of us.Thank u so much.Muaks.....

I know there are some gossips about me in my class,I'm sure is not spread by my best sisters & friends as I will not done the same things to my B so I just don't care it as I just want to be Myself.I hate those people who betray friend so I rather choose not to know who betray me.A,just forget it,have a smile...=>

This is the logo that I design for presentation-Create a company.

Yesterday,I having my personal oral presentation.Wah!I were extremely nervous as since a long time i didn't have personal presentation & I'm the 1st presenter.During the presentation,I just acted like I'm calm as I know nervous will make me forget what I needed to say.I don't know how my performance was but my friends told me that is quite good.Wish Ms.Jane will satisfy to my performance.Thank, Zing for borrow me your laptop to complete my slide show as my stupid laptop always got problem.I WANT CHANGE A NEW LAPTOP,mummy.hehe........

I miss my mama so mch.It has been 1month and 2weeks I didn't go back home.Mummy,I miss U.Mumy,wait me I'll bck in this friday.I MSN with my Bro Lian Wee today.I'm so touch with what he told me.Pei Ling,don't worry as he is really a good man & I'm sure he will love and protect u forever.Thank god for loving all people around me.Please help them when they are in trouble.

God,Help those people who illness with AH1N1.They are innocent.AH1N1,please leave us away.U r not belong to this world.Get away from us.....>>>

I love this Rome style sandal from LANVIN.How much is it?I want buy.I must have it.Anybody know how much???I want go to Starhill.......I want buy!

OUTFIT OF THE DAY

I like the checker shirt from TOPMAN.

Please Pay attention in the class,Andrew....hehe^^

You my one & only

I　miss　you　I miss you　好想你

Hi my one and only　這麼多天沒見
可是我總想起你的聲音　在我耳邊
今天心情好嗎　是否不愉快
要一切都看得開　世界沒有太壞
雖然不在你身邊　我的心有一條線　連著你　牽著你

好想你　想到願意相信　我就閉上了眼睛　你在這裡
別忘記　我們的約定　一直都在我心裡
不管你在哪裡　不要忘了我有多麼愛你

不要忘了吃飯　不管有多忙
不要忘了開車時候　一定要往前看
其實我真的很快樂　有你一直守候
一直走到了以後都挽著你的手
雖然不在你身邊　但我在你心裡面　我願意　等著你

我好想你　想到不能呼吸　想到全身沒力氣　沒有關係
你別忘記　我們的約定　一直都在我心裡
不管你在哪裡　不要忘了我有多麼愛你

我一直在這裡　不要忘了我有多麼　愛你

Today is the second year that you leave me & mummy.Sometimes, I really admire friends or other people that could go out together with mum and dad.It so happiness.I know that you want me to be strong and independent.Don't worry,I will do it and I will spent all my time with mummy in the left of my life.I miss you.Daddy,I love you.

think

想家
却无法任意归巢
想他
却无法再遇见他
想哭
却无法流出泪滴
想叫
却无法随心呐喊
想骂
却无法伤人之心
想睡
却无发安心入眠
想放
却无法洒脱放开
This is the feeling in my heart at this moment,every thing that I want is just "think" as it is impossible to be true. The impression of a person is always different from the reality as other people would no treat you same as your way although you are not tend to received any feedback
but
at least a care more to others or have a think before expressed any thing.
Don't think so much again,every thing will become better in time.
Wish I get better soon as time will not wait for anyone.
为自己而争取
为自己而奋斗
愿天下知心都能如愿以偿 及
明天的世界会更美好
...*g00d N1ghT*...